Give back the favors?

I hear everybody say be yourself, follow your heart, do something you really love, no matter what others say you gotta carry on with what you want and follow where your heart leads to and keep walking till the end. I feel like I’m stuck.

There’s allot of people that i owe allot to. They have done allot for me and they expect different things from me, totally different from what i want.

So, should i give them back and be what they expect me to be or should i follow my heart which will probably hurt everybody around me. It’s not something bad that i want ofcourse. But what I’m pretty sure about is that everybody is gonna oppose. I have already tried it. So live life for others or live for yourself? either way is hard and got it’s downsides.

I wish i could just disappear and go to a place where nobody would recognize me anymore.