I am so so grateful and thankful for everything in my life. It feels so great. Its so touching and I feel like crying with joy when i realize how God is planning my life. I’m so guilty for complaining all the time about stuff that does not even matter when their are greater things to be thankful for. Thank you Allah. 

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Have you ever faced problems because you don’t have enough money?

if No. Then don’t go on telling me how money is not important and it does not buy you happiness and all that crap. I know how everyday I have to face problems because of it. I know it’s probably because I’m far from my own country, i don’t find allot of opportunities and all. 

I’m not mad or complaining. Getting things the hard way is the best thing.

BTW, this is my last negative post. I swear ! I’m starting this 30 day challenge. So you know its done right.  <3

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So angry. Why?

I’m just so angry inside, at myself, at people, at everything i guess. When i talk to someone all that anger comes out. I feel like such a scary person. I’m hurting people all the time with my words. I don’t even mean to. I want to be a better person. It’s so tiring. My heart is worn out.

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The sad thing:

is not when the thing you truly desperately desire is so faraway from you and you can’t get it. But it’s when that thing is just a few steps away from you. And you just stand there all numb. Doing nothing at all, so helpless.

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People getting me wrong has always been a problem. Even the closest people get me wrong. I must suck at expressing myself.

Life never turns out the way you plan it, it turns out to be better because Allah is the one who planned it and not you.

Give back the favors?

I hear everybody say be yourself, follow your heart, do something you really love, no matter what others say you gotta carry on with what you want and follow where your heart leads to and keep walking till the end. I feel like I’m stuck.

There’s allot of people that i owe allot to. They have done allot for me and they expect different things from me, totally different from what i want.

So, should i give them back and be what they expect me to be or should i follow my heart which will probably hurt everybody around me. It’s not something bad that i want ofcourse. But what I’m pretty sure about is that everybody is gonna oppose. I have already tried it. So live life for others or live for yourself? either way is hard and got it’s downsides.

I wish i could just disappear and go to a place where nobody would recognize me anymore.

Life .. I don’t even know how to express anymore.

this setup will fit perfectly in my room ! if only i had this furniture!! lol i feel so poor! but i love my roooom

I have such a bad temper. :( dammit !

Sometimes I don’t know how to express right, so i say stupid things, people get offended somehow even though I don’t mean it. And they even misunderstand me but I don’t make things clear, I don’t know how to. And may be they just start hating me from inside.

I see God’s mercy everywhere.

Sometimes i wonder what if Allah would take one blessing each time i made a mistake in his rights. What would have been left of me?

I feel like crying whenever i think about Allah’s blessings on me and how he has always given me chances. Al7amdulillah!! Oh Allah! Fill my heart with your love. 

I just cried my heart out loud. Because there is no one at home. So yeah.

Plus i feel sad without any reason. But I’m giving myself a while, some moments. Until then.. Let me cry more.

Is it weird that i don’t like to hang a clock in my room. The tick tick voice is so irritating to me. It makes me so nervous. I cannot sleep when the it’s ticking. Does anybody else feels the same?

It’s only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth — and that we have no way of knowing when our own time is up — that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had.